Essay seriously kill me.

HELLO-I'M-BORED. Mummy can you hear me? Ya Allah,I'm so lazy bumbum to start this essay. Need someone to help me. Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeee :( Eeeiiiiii

:'(

It sucks seeing someone you use to be really close with, be so happy and create new memories with someone else. What happened to us? The conversations, the hangouts, the advice, all of it pummeled down to a mere greeting every so often. I miss everyone I use to be close with. It’s nice seeing them doing well though.

Planned to go Port Dickson. But with who? Mybe Adlina...mybe,

Lawak ke derr?

Tak lawak lah. Tak lawak. Seriously tak lawak. Apa lagi? Apa lagi tak cukup? Nasib baik aku ni bukan jenis simpan dalam. Kau mmg hati busuk. Menyesal weh,menyesal :'/ Thanks for everything. Thanks.

Triple Down

One of the best feelings is having a good time with good company, making new memories. I feel bad when I don’t show how much I appreciate the people that even try to make me feel better when something’s wrong. It’s such a selfish trait I have during that moment.

Let me tell you now,
Who knew you could feel so confident, yet so scared at the same time.

Seduce my mind and you can have my body. Find my soul and I'm yours forever.

Break a promise

I can’t explain what I mean. And even if I could, I’m not sure I’d feel like it.

Today

I found this but I didn't Hope too much'

:S

I am seriously missing that stupid heartless boy who breaks my hearts :'( Fuck, I really hate this down. Hmm

MEMEKAK LAH SIAL KAU NI -.-"

Sunday

I got stupid dream last night. Ya Allah,please don't do this to me. This is seriously unfair to me. I can't handle this alone. NOOOOOO! Not this anymore. Sorry, Pasrah teruk :'/

Happy Father Day's

Happy Father Day's Ayahku :* I love you like always. And please stay to be my hero. I woke up early and terus masuk bilik ayah. Hug him and suddenly I'm crying :'( "Siapa buat kamu? Meh sini meh,berani buat anak ayah ye" Ayah always make stupid joke even tgh nangis pun tau. Thanks ayah. Thanks for everything.You're always my heroooooooooooooooooo! Remember that!

You just use....

Mama, Ayah, I'm sorry that I just failed to make you happy. I know I'm not a good daughter, I know I'm not smart enough to make you proud. I'm really really sorry. It was not my intention to do. I hope you know that I've tried my best. It saddens me realizing that I always fail to make you happy when you're always there to help me when you're always there to buy me anything I want. 

TALK IS CHEAP.

Piece

Sometimes we have to let go of the things we love most in life. Accept that God has a better plan for us. Its hard but time will heal. Accept that it's gone and treasure the memories of it.

Hehehe

Very the gidikxzxxxxx :3

I'm give up on you. Ya Allah,benda ni lah yang selalu aku tknk ckp. Tknk mengaku,but today idk why. I didn't show my pain inside,inside weh. Inside. Parah dia yang atas tu je tahu. Apa kau igt aku ni tkde hati ke? Maruah ke? Dok tergedik kat kau,tapi selama ini buat semua tu,sbb sayang. Kau buat aku sama mcm anjing. Sumpah. Where is my 'keras kepala? Mana? "Lantak lah" Penat fikir orang yang tak fikir kita -__-" Like seriously I won't start anything first after this. I don't wanna lie. Yes,I miss you badly :(  But enough is enough. I want to move on. Sayangggggggggggggnya :'(

Ina love me :')

Ahhhh tireringgggggg day ever. Even I just walked. Walked not running or jumping but still tired. Okay let's start. I'm super dupper can't understand myself. My feeling. Me mind. My attitude. My reason. My choice. And myself. Oh,everything 'My. Ergh what's wrong with me actually? "Kenapa kau mesti nak suka sedaya upaya pada orang yang belum tentu suka kau" KENAPA? WHY? Bukannya takde siapa nk kau. Bukannya orang lain yang nk kau tu tak kaya? Tak handsome or muka pecah ke apa. But why? Shit! This question always running in my mind. Okay! Let me make a conclusion now..Sebabnya lelaki yang along suka bukan lelaki-lelaki tu lah mama :( Biar tkde duit ke apa ke,along kisah pulak? Pernah kan along bgtau mama,along tknk org kaya jadi suami along. Mama ingat tak? Mama tak faham. That's why. Enough kan? I really wish that my mom can read all my post in this blog, sebab from this blog I never lie at all. Like seriously. But it's okay mama, Anak mama ni sentiasa sihat. Badan pun gemuk,Hahaha lek lek okay? Tkdenya nak stress mcm dulu. Hehehe chill okay.

Boring

DIGI,MAXIS AND CELCOM. OUT OF STOCK -.-"

Macam mana lah kita tak mengamuk kan? Dah lah jalan sorang-sorang dengan harapan dapat lah harini. Sekali tak -.-" K,sedih. Bye. Bosaaaaaannnnnnnnnn

Never Say Goodbye

It's been awhile since I last updated about my loved one, (You know who you are). Eventhough it's been awhile, that doesn't mean I've stopped missing him. My prayers are always with him, all the time. Insya Allah. I hope Allah always accept my prayers for him. I know I'm not perfect. Seriously no. But there's only one thing that I need from You.

 

I dream a lot about him these days. I won't forget to pray for him in my solat. I miss spending time with you. I miss hanging out with you, talking about nothing. Every part of me misses you like crazy. I hope we'll meet again one fine day. Insya Allah. Take care of yourself  there.

I miss you more than anything.

Love,

You new to the world.

Isn't it funny how from year to year you don't see much of a change in yourself, physical or emotional, then suddenly you look back and you are a different person. It's like watching an hour hand on a clock, you don't really see it move, but it's changing all the time.

How I wish I could turn back time, just like that, and live my life to the fullest. Life's been a whole lot different now. Being a kid was the best thing that's ever happened in my life. It's like, I don't have to think too much about the dramatic teenage stories that never end and the love story that god knows how long will it stand.

So now, having a bright future to make my parents proud is the only thing that I'm aiming for. But sometimes, I wonder, I babble too much about my future but I still haven't start moving and taking a step to at least see that life is getting better from day to day. 

I wish life would be a whole lot easier than it is now and I hope I would start doing something good to have a bright future just like anybody else.

Love, Syika Said

Wordless.

"I have died everyday waiting for you. Darling don't be afraid, I have loved you for a thousand years, I'll love you for a thousand more" - Christina Perri

 

I have no idea why in the world my tongue keeps singing A Thousand Years by Christina Perri. This song is really sweet, I'm currently in love with this song though. Oh not to mention, Breaking Dawn part one was a bit slow. And the last part of that movie.. Where Bella woke up with her red eyes. Ugh okay. Imma just wait for the part two. I remember that last time Breaking Dawn part one I should watch the movie with you but then you are not long in relationship. But this part two I'll make sure I watch this movie with you :) Boleh? Hikhikhik

Adlina Azalee :3

I don't like you with Megat! Like seriously. Bukan sebab aku tak suka Megat ke apa tapi dia tu pelik. Tak kena lah. Hahahah and kau pun mmg tak suka dia pun kan? Listen,you're the best sister I have. Dari asrama doh,sumpah! Mana ada aku nak gedik-gedik dgn senior lain. Ada pun sbb taknak kena booo! Hahaha but trust me you will be always with me. I'm always here for you. Anytime baby <3 Almost everything kan kita shared? Paling tak senonoh bab kau ajar aku benda merepek-repeks. Then,kita main gomol tetek dalam kereta :p Ya Allah,bodohnya engkau! Eh,kita. Hahah Duhh tahan tetek je lah kan. Hahah tetek kau dah okay belum? Eyna,apa pun jadi just be yourself. Ignore others. Bukan semua orang perfect weh,tak buat salah ke apa en. So? Learn from past. Same goes to me :) And aku simpan lagi tau hadiah kau bg aku tu :D Aku sorang je dpt ofcourse lah simpan! Lastly,I love you so much and please don't move and just stay with me. Cehh,aku tak jealous pun kau dgn Ajua adik sayang kau tu but tknk kau terpedaya dgn hasutan syaiton dia. Ikut kau lerr. Muah baby,muah :*

Meet the Senior's

Miss calling you 'Sayang :'(

GEN TO THE TING TO THE TRIP'

 From the cable car untill the hotel room everything perfect to me :*

This! I feel like wrote about you again in my blog. Yeah! We're happy right when we're in genting for two days? Everything doing together and sumpah rindu :'(  Like I say before,we're born to shared everything together Mar :') Cewahh. But macam betul macam tak. Hahaha it's okay janji kiteorg happy. Nobody there can control us. Even looked at us pun sebab we locked our self in le room. Hikhik. Btw mama and ayah knows everything. Dia tak marah pun sebenarnya sebab tu aku pelik -___-" How come eh? My be this is called 'Pelik Bin Ajaib' that you always told me before. Hehehe *because mama sayang kau lebih. Menyampah* Okay back to our story,I feel very very safe when hold of myself with you. Only you! Idk why. What happen to me? Kau pakai bomoh siam eh? I haven feel this before until I found you in my life. Sebab tu masa kau chow tinggal aku tu aku sumpah hilang arah,mati akal,Ya Allah I really can't looked at myself masa tu Mar. Jujur. But I didn't blame you at all. Sebab you for sure have your own reason kenapa buat aku mcmtu kan? It's okay. I already forgive you. Mama pun cakap since aku kawan dengan kau I change a lot. A lot! Wooow :O How meant you to me kan? Nampak tak? But still it's okay,I don't mind if after this you lost again from me. Tkpe lah,aku redha. But only god knows what I feel. I love you from inside Mar. Dari dulu! Tak berubah sikit pun. Aku try nak benci kau tapi I can't. You are not my first pun but mcm aku cakap there're something between us'. Hope you always happy with your life and stay strong okay? Aku tahu kau boleh hidup sendiri. Aku tahu weh,and if you're reading this please,please Mar jaga diri. Control smoke tu. Tak sayang aku pun tkpe lah,fikir diri kau tu dulu. Hahaha mcm kau baca kan? Konon -.-" Tapi kau sorang je pun yang mmg tahu blog ni. Yep,dah lama tak cakap benda ni kat kau. I  love you. Easy words but hard to say. Kita selalu gaduh kan sbb aku tak reply I love you too kau. Aku malu sebenarnya :* Hahahaha

Loser

After few days bangun buat solat hajat yep,"Tenang" tu ada. Actually aku niat nak Pak ngah sedar and at the same time buat lah solat hajat untuk aku sekali. This is truth,yes! Memang aku banyak buat dosa,banyak tinggal solat but you don't have any right to judge me. Kubur masing-masing kan? Kau pun reti. And yesterday aku menangis sangat sebab kena sound tepek. What the eff? Kau sound aku? Aku? Aku lawan! Sbb aku tknk nampak bodoh and benda sebab jantan. Come on? Past is past lah. Kau tu siapa? Tak pernah couple pun dgn dia kan? Then? Tak payah lah nak mengajar aku. He's mine before. Aku tahu dia macam mana. Sumpah weh,since sekolah kau mmg tak puas hati dgn aku. Kau dajal aku bagi orang tak suka aku. Ingat aku bodoh? Dayyum! Stupid you! Then I tell this to Adlina and her respond "Sia-sia muka lawa tapi hati kotor. Kau buat bodoh Syika """""""""""blabla""""""""""" I was like fine actually,cuma sentap sikit lah. Member kot,kau break dulu siapa yang kau cari? Kau kena palau dulu siapa yang kawan dengan kau? This is called life. Konon life -.-"

0.O

What-Should-I-Buy-For-Father-Day's. Sign.

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Epic face. Blame the sunlight. Haha.

Being vain in the hotel room is soooo Syika! Hehe.

Kita..

Kita bosan. Kita tak tahu nak buat apa. Kita malas nak tweet. Kita nak main blog. Eh sukahati kita lah. Kita punya pasal lah. Kita bosan. Kita.....OMG! Annoying gila aku. Stop it Syika, Haha but like seriously I'm fucktart bored like bumpbump. I feel like kill myself je or gantung my leher dekat kipas. Ish dosa, Haha Tell me what should I do? Want to going out but nobody want to teman me. Semua busy-ing. Benciiiiiiii eeeeeee. So? I'm gona continue updating :3 Wuhuuuuuuu~

NAKNAKNAK!

 

Awww-do-rah-ble rings! Ahhhhh, nak..

 

#iForeverLovePolaroid & #PleaseGiveMeOne

Drama

Stop tweeting like you own the world. Hell please. You're just a school kid yang baru nak kenal dunia. Well, I'm just saying. Stop tweeting so hard just to gain your amount of  followers. It's disgusting. Nobody is a twitterfamous. Even Faliq Fahmie or Syamimi known as Mermaid doesn't need too much followers. Mampus aku kena bash lepasni. Hahaha

Emotion' Stuck Mind

I always tell you that I can't sleep at night because of this and that but only god knows what I've been doing for the past few nights. Wallahi,I've been praying all night long asking forgiveness from Him,begging Him to make things better between us again. I know I don't have the rights to tell you what to do but I really miss the old us that we always asked each other. Ya Allah,Kenapa aku menangis ni? :'( Please remember all the things I've been reminding you ever since we first love each other, please love the walls that we've made since March 16th. I never want you to change and I never ever want you to go. Just tell me if you don't need me anymore. Tell me if you can't find the happiness with me anymore. I'll try to accept it no matter how hard it's going to be. Getting over the problems we had is just way too hard for me. Forgetting it is way harder. And I'm begging you to please give me time to forget about it. Bring back my strong self, I need it. I'm really really sorry for every single thing I do that might hurt your feelings and I'm really really sorry for everything. I just realized that I seriously can't live without you. You're the one that can make me happy and you are the one that's successfully made me feel so blessed ever since last two years. Thank you for every single thing you gave to me,thank you for the effort that you showed me,thank you for being way too faithful and loyal and thank you for everything you've done to me. I really really appreciate you. I don't know if you want to be with me forever too,so tawakal and redha is the best thing that I can do now. Again,thank you and I'm really really sorry for everything. I love you very much,from the very bottom of my heart. You're the best thing that's ever happened in my life. Thank you.

I've feeling too

I already promise to myself,if one day I found someone that I really love I will make sure I will just stay to be like this. This is not hypocrite but this is what I have promise to myself. By covering our aurat, it doesn't make us perfect. We still make mistakes but we're trying our best to change for good. Insya Allah.You people have no rights to judge us by saying "perempuan bertudung lagi banyak buat maksiat."  Here is an easy step to stop you from saying something like this. Mind your own business. If you don't have any businesses to mind. It's better. I think. Insya Allah.

I'm Back.

"I'm not going to expect anything. Being happy with my loved ones is all that I'm wishing for."

I'm back. Yo! Yeah,I won't stop blogging after this. I promise. Too bored at home and I need my blog back to shared everything.